So lately, I've been feeling a bit of a disconnect in my spiritual life. I just don't feel as close to God has I have in the past. I realize that as a Christian, our walk with God waxes and wanes, but I don't have to be okay with it. My daily devotion and prayer time with Tom has been such a great thing for our relationship with one another and with God. I love our church and Sunday School class. I even find myself looking forward to serving in Kindergarten. Something still feels missing.
As I was praying about it, God revealed a total "duh" moment. As I began looking back on my life, I started to see that the times I felt closest to God throughout my life were the times when I was writing in a prayer journal consistantly. Of course! It makes complete sense because it's one thing for me to go to church, read the Bible and serve in ministry, but that can only take me so far. I crave that one on one personal connection with my Heavenly Father and my favorite way to get that is to write out my prayers. When I journal, it's very personal...more like a conversation or a letter rather than a list of prayer requests. God has used my prayer journals in the past in so many ways...to help me get my priorities straight, to reveal how He is working in my life, to increase my awareness of just how incredibly blessed I am and countless other ways I'm probably not even aware of.
So the other day Tom and I went to KMart and I picked out a nice leather journal. And of course it is pink ;) Today is Day 1 and I can't wait to start! I'm making a commitment to write in it at some point every day until it is full. I love looking back on my entries and seeing how far I've come and the best part is feeling my anxieties wash away with the knowledge that God's got my back and He loves me so much that He even listens to this girl's prayers. It's amazing to me just how many people there are in the world and how involved God is in the fabric of each of their lives whether they are aware of it or not. This has been especially apparent to me watching all of the countries walking in the opening ceremony of the Olympics. Our God is an awesome God isn't He?
My question for you...Have you ever journaled? If so, what was your purpose in doing so? Did it have a positive impact on your life?
I am now guiltily (is that a real word?) looking at my prayer journal which could only be more neglected if I quit carrying it around. My prayer life was much better when I was using my journal, and it is directly related to my being over 2 months behind on my daily bible reading.
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