It's been 162 days without (knowingly) consuming sugar. I say knowingly because I'm sure somewhere amidst all of the food I have eaten at weddings, restaurants and other people's homes there has been a gram or two of sugar. But I have done my absolute best to look at every can, package, box and menu item to ensure my body is not taking in sugar. It has been rediculously hard. Sometimes I catch myself feeling really sorry for myself. This is definitely a "first world problem". Seriously, there are millions if not billions of people starving to death every day. I have all the fruit, veggies, proteins, spices and pastas I could possibly need. God has so incredibly blessed my life. Why am I feeling sorry for myself? Well because I forget my blessings and focus on watching everyone around me eat what I cannot. I get tripped up thinking, honestly, is it working? I have had 38 migraines in the past 162 days. Each day I am more and more convinced that my trigger is not specifically sugar, because clearly if that was my only trigger, then I would have had 0 migraines instead of 38. I don't want to reintroduce sugar and go back to my old way of life, eating crap. Yes, it's harsh, but much of the food I was eating before was crap...full of preservatives, brimming with sugar, and soaking in high fructose corn syrup. I definitely don't want to go back to that. I know my body is performing at a healthier weight now because of my lifestyle change and it is functioning higher as well.
My hopes of the testosterone diminishing my headaches are still in limbo. Since beginning on the cream I have had 7 migraines. I get to start on the progesterone on Wednesday so maybe with both of the hormone therapies working together, it will begin to make a difference. I am frustrated, but haven't given up hope. I just want something to work and to work consistantly.
At this point I'm going to keep sugars of all forms (except those naturally found in fruits and honey) out of my diet as well as preservatives. I think I'm having a difficult time right now because I'm a facilitator for a teaching conference next week and each day they will be providing lunch for us, which I'm sure contains some sort of sugar so I am bringing my lunch every day next week because I just don't know what is in food if I don't make it and it's not worth a migraine. Also, I desperately want ice cream right now. Maybe an oreo or a brownie too. But, as my grandma says, "It's only 30 seconds of pleasure and then it's done." She's right. I can do this. I've done it for 162 days and I can keep doing it. Waiting to see what the hormones can do will be worth the wait. Hey, maybe the hormones will clear up the migraines and I will be able to keep my sugar free lifestyle and only have a treat on special occasions. I can still keep my body healthy, but will be able to enjoy a dessert every once in a while knowing it won't give me a migraine. That is my hope. But in the meantime I will keep on keeping on and try not to throw pity parties for myself, at least maybe space them out a little. ;)
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