I am finishing up my first semester of my second masters degree. That's a mouthful. Only 2.5 semesters and 3 summers to go! Just the thought makes me a little dizzy, but seriously, I feel like a much more effective educator already.
Also, I've lost 15 pounds since March. I started lifting weights (and no ladies and gents it doesn't make you huge). I have a progress pic below that proves that lifting is toning me up and I'm actually getting smaller while I get stronger. I've also kept up running and started biking and swimming on the regular as well. Who IS this girl? I don't know, but I LIKE her.
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That's only 10 pounds difference, but many, many inches.
Now I'm sure you're wondering...so how's the pregnancy thing going? Well, clearly plan A of getting pregnant "on our own" isn't working and having insurance that doesn't cover infertility isn't helpful. Thankfully though, we are moving on to Plan B. We were insanely blessed to be able to switch insurance companies and now we don't have to pay $400 bills each month for blood work to tell me I didn't ovulate. Not only that, but we have been referred to a fertility specialist that will be covered by our insurance. Praise the Lord! I am really very hopeful. I've already started to mentally prepare myself for the shots that may accompany the treatment and all the blood work. This girl has come a long way from passing out in the middle of the sidewalk after a TB test for student teaching to now being able to actually sit up and stay conscious during a blood draw. Yippee!
Plan C will come in if the fertility specialist treatments don't work. I know I know. Don't think that way Laura! But seriously folks...it's a possibility and we have to deal with that. Emotionally I have to be prepared so Plan C is to pursue domestic adoption either through foster care or an agency. Tom and I have prayed, talked, researched, and prayed some more about this and we especially need to have this hope in the back of our minds because we feel led to stop fertility treatment if it has to go to IVF. It breaks my heart to know that we could be in reach of having a baby and have to stop, but I know that is God's will for us and we are prepared for that.
So my doctors kept telling me that losing weight may increase my chances of pregnancy. Well, with every negative news regarding pregnancy would directly result in a binge eating depressed state of mind for me. It was a constant battle. I wanted to be healthy for my future baby, but I would catch myself thinking, what's the use of all this trying if I can't even get pregnant? I would also just about lose it whenever I would see someone bigger than me who was able to get pregnant easily. So my weight loss and healthy living efforts were being thwarted by me, myself and I.
Clearly, I needed a new goal and new motivation to be healthy. Well, you know how I said I've started to bike and swim? Well, my goal is to do a sprint triathlon. Don't worry Grandma. (Yes my grandma is fantastic and reads my blogs and even has a Facebook account AND she is a professional grandma, which means she worries about me.) It is the shortest triathlon you can do. It's 400 meters of swimming (15-20 minutes) 12 miles of biking (about an hour) and then 3.1 miles of running (about 35 minutes). I can do each one of these activities by themselves pretty easily. Now I am just trying to get better at doing them all together. I'm so excited! It's this summer and I am SO excited! I'm already in week 3 of my training and I feel so good and healthy and fit already! So by summer I will either be a triathlete or pregnant. I feel SO much better now that I have a different focus. Mentally and emotionally and physically this is so much healthier and I am excited. If I am blessed with a pregnancy you better believe I'm not doing a triathlon. I've seen pregnant ladies first hand and they can barely make it through the day in the first trimester, let alone bike for an hour. I still will want to be active and eat well, but baby will be first priority.
So there you have it! I am really happy and loving this new focus. God is working hard on my heart to make it more like his and I am being humbled every day by my struggles, but strengthened in Christ. I hope you have a lovely holiday with your family tomorrow for Thanksgiving. Hug your loved ones really tight...I know I will.
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