Words of Wisdom

The last time I wrote, it was getting to the point where I felt that something had to go.  Well, nothing's gone anywhere and I am still living life.  I walked in on a conversation at church and this is what I heard... "Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it."  Now this is not the first time I've heard this, but it hit me hard.  I know there are so many more people who are way busier than I am and have many more responsibilities so I decided that instead of taking things out of my life, I need to take a different perspective.  My reactions to situations have not been pretty.  I let emotions and reactions dictate my mood, which is trouble.  Being mindful of my perspective is incredibly important.  I've been trying to trust in God's plan, standing up for myself, making an effort to be positive, doing what I can to soak up these blessings and be thankful.  It's tough, but life is waaaay easier and more pleasant when I take a different perspective.  I also had some time to think this weekend during my 10K race.  That's 6.2 miles and 80 amazing minutes of think time.  By the way, I can't believe I actually ran the whole thing.  Maybe I was too busy thinking and loving the weather to worry about the distance.  Anyway, I decided that I want to do things with a purpose and live with joy.  I want to find joy in the good and the bad.  How to do that?  Not sure, but I know that God works all things for good.  Something that also hit me was a question posed last week..."Can you be stressed and feel out of control when you are completely dependent on God?"  BAM!  Wow, yeah that hit me like a ton of bricks.  If I am completely dependent on the creator of the world, then why would I even begin to be stressed??  But how do I become completely dependent on Him?  How do I still do everything I am supposed to do, make decisions, choices and live life, but depend on God at the same time?  How can I let go of the worry, anxiety and lay them at His feet every minute of every day?  I am able to do this sometimes, but then I allow the worries to creep back into my heart and take hold.  How do I keep this from happening?  Well, I know I need to start with prayer and go from there.  Thankfully, we have this little thing called The Bible to help out too.  I think this is going to be a constant struggle for me, but I know that God has a plan for my life and I don't think it's to be stressed out with heart palpatations.  I think it's a plan filled with ups and downs, but a constant heart of a servant filled with the joy of knowing that I am truly and deeply loved by a perfect God who is faithful and full of grace.