This afternoon on my way home from work (after staying late at school for a meeting and missing my TMJD appt) I was trying to de-stress and just breathe. Well, it wasn't working and I was incredibly stressed out from the day so I started praying. Sometimes there's no where else to go but to your knees (not literally of course...safety first when driving!!) I told God I just didn't know what to pray for. I was so tired but felt my mind was working on overdrive. I didn't even know where to start so I just started with being thankful. Thankful for the blue sky. Thankful for the car I was driving. Thankful for having a job. Thankful for my marriage. Slowly, a peace came over me as I started focusing on the blessings in my life instead of the challenges and I was able to breathe more normally and realize that it really is okay. God is good. I may not understand His plans, but I can rest in the fact that He is good. Once I was able to think more clearly, I began asking myself why I'm so worn out this school year. Well, last year I wasn't co-leading a college Bible study, I wasn't part of a running club, or a member at a gym, or in a young married's small group, or mentoring a student teacher, or going to the doctor weekly. Last year I had time to relax, make dinner, hang out with my husband, talk to my friends and family, read, watch some shows and just enjoy. All of the activities I'm involved in are WONDERFUL and they bring me so much joy. The gym membership and running club are great for my health and necessary for my physical and emotional well being. So is being able to have time (and energy) to plan, shop for and make healthy dinners. I need the small group and Bible Study for my spiritual and social well being. Mentoring has been a huge blessing in my life and I have become a better teacher even these first few weeks of having a student teacher than any other two weeks because I'm reflecting upon everything I'm doing and explain the purpose of all I do throughout my school day. My gut feeling is that running is going to have to go and I'm going to just have to say "no" to some activities on the weekends. I want to feel like my head is above water. I don't even have kids yet! How would I deal with having kids? I have SO MUCH respect for working moms. Wow. I can't imagine the balance that would have to be maintained adding one, two, three or maybe more into the mix of responsibilities.
So here's my plan:
*Pre-cook meat ahead of time for quicker meals
*Make freezer meals to thaw on busy nights
*Choose my activities sparingly
*Learn how to say "no"
*Breathe
*Do not freak out...just let it go and move on :)
*Pray about what needs to go
*Give my worries over to God and be thankful for what I do have in my life
Any other suggestions??
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